Still dancing the Shivadance here in India.

I have thought about you and about writing.I have not been able to,
because so much is going on and transforming on the inner and outher levels
– and there is so much to write about.

India is an interesting place, very mixed – but most important of all –
from what I have experienced untill now, they come from the heart.
They are not mindpeople like we are in the western world….still….

It took me a while to lay down my usual suspisciousness, that I know so well from back home – and letting people help me in the way they want to help me and to actually see that they were just accepting me and not questioning me.

The big appifany for me was at a postoffice – or posthut – in Rishikesh,
the guy didn´t speek english, but he silently showed me what to do
and told me to sit down. He was in an extremely little and primitive office
with 2 other colleagues. And while he took care of my things –
he had to take care of all the other customers that came to his window –
and listen to a loud argument between his colleague and a customer, at the same time a machine started bipping very insisting and loud.
He packed my stuff into an old potatobag and put a cloth around it
and started sowing it together around my things.
He was calm, friendly and doing his job without letting the surroundings disturb him.

Suddenly I realised that I was also in this inferno –
and that it was so much easier for me to take the sounds and the smell, dust, beggars, cowshit and all that could normally bother me.

I suddenly understood how I was met with the feeling of ”we are all One” instead of ”We are all individuals” and what big difference it makes – for your feeling of love and safety.

Words can not describe this feeling – I felt embraced by India, by Rishikesh, by the energy, by Love –  So much gratefulness came to me that I was almostbeginning to cry in this small postoffice in Rishikesh.

A city that did it´s part to open my heart more – there is a very special and spiritually high energy there – and they all fill the waters of Ganges with their prayers and wishes, which makes the water Holy and good for energetically purifying. That is one beautiful part of India. I hope I can bring this energy with me in my heart.

Another part of India is that they have not managed to keep the nature clean from garbage and that also meen Mother Ganga. They seem to throw the garbage in the nature, and often in the most beautiful places. And they walk around in cowshit and don´t have high hygiejne standards – it´s a strange contrast to be pure on the inside, but not taking care of the surroundings.

I think that is just one of the many contrast there is to meet here.

See I ended up writing something anyway

Hope you are all well – and enjoying christmas time, time of the hearts.

Love Tine

Namaste – the soul in me is greating the soul in you.

I have descided to continue this blog in english, since I have some friends from other contrunies who wants to keep updated too – and most, if not all, my dansih friends read english. So please bear with my danishenglish – it will not be perfect and I might make quite a few mistakes, but I will give it my best and hope you understand my messages.

I have now been in India for a little more than a week – and there has been a lot of adaption. All these feelings coming up. The tiredness after skipping a night during travelling, the fear of all the unknown, the fear of loneliness and not being able to handle it.

I am at the Kundaliniyogafestival and celebrating 11.11.11.

Our theme this week has been to be with all the feelings and emotions that we think we can´t handle.

In one of the yogaclasses it was made very physically – We were encouraged to strech our body beyond what we believe possible. To stand on the toes and strech as long as we could, and then, when we where at our toes, to stand on one leg on the toes, keep on streching and as soon as we began to find a little bit of balance in that, the instructor said ”how about being like Shiva, doing the Shiva dance”

That means standing on one leg, on one toe and dance – keep on lifting the other leg….so….for 15 minutes we got the possibility to do the Shivadance

Don´t think anybody got up on one toe on one leg dancing – it was not an easy job, you can try it yourself if you want. But we all strived and I guess we also felt the possibility of being able of more than we thought we were before we began.

The point behind all this, is that in the Aquarian age, in which we have now entered through the gateway of 11.11.11., it is about our nerves and fasia – not our body, and muscles. We have to go beyond the physical, to rise our energy from limitations.

It is also about getting rid of all false identification, that is based on needs – that means that all lies will be reveiled. Collective and individual lies.

To enter the Kingdom of heaven – You have to be YOU. Let go of limitating believes and learnings about who we are, and start searching within you for YOU. The shining, creative, beautiful and unique YOU.

And when you are striving for that you – you will sense more and more tension and stress, make more mistakes – just as when we were doing the Shivadance, it was nothing but mistakes, since we could not do it – because growth means doing something you don´t know yet. And to go beyond what you think you can.

You know the phrase: The more mistakes you´ve made, the more knowledge you gain.

For me it was quite an enlightening reminder –
To be with all the feelings and knowing that they are just a part of the proces to something beyond. Beyond what I now believe is possible. And that in the striving of being YOU- you´ll meet all kinds of emotional challenges as a pressure. Simply the acceptance of it brings peace.

How do you strive to be YOU, and can you always distiguish between the real you and the you based on false identification with needs?

I´ll love to hear from you, in danish and english.

Namasté and thank you
And happy 11.11.11 to YOU <3

Jeg er nu på vej til Indien – på uvis tid.

Jeg har længe været klar over jeg skulle til Indien, men ikke
hvornår og hvorfor. Jeg ved stadig ikke helt hvorfor – eller hvad
det er jeg skal der.
I sommer var jeg på et superskønt retreat med Deva Premal og Miten
- og de inviterede til at deltage i kundaliniyogafestival i Indien
i anledningen af d. 11.11.11. Det var åbenbart mit hint til at tage
afsted. Og en tryg start 

Det har været en blandet beslutning, da jeg oveni har besluttet at
leje min lejlighed ud et år – og regner ikke med at komme tilbage
til den. Så alt er pakket ned og alt er åbent lige nu.

Det har været et interessant opgør med en masse angst, der er
dukket op i forbindelse med at sige farvel til det trygge og rejse
til det ukendte alene.
Midt i det hele fandt jeg ud af at angsten vel handlede mest om,
at jeg ikke stoler på, at jeg kan klare mig selv.
Jeg valgte at bruge min coach´s råd, at blive i følelsen når den
var der og mærke hvad den egentlig var, uden at kalde den noget
eller forholde den til noget. Og så var den ikke så farlig. Så var
det bare en følelse, og det er en følelse jeg kender rigtig godt,
fra meget af mit liv og det er en følelse der vil beskytte mig. Jeg
har nu leget en del med den følelse – angst. Og den er ikke længere
så ubehagelig. Jeg begynder at kende den og jeg ser også at den
nogle gange dukker op af bare vane
Jeg er sikker på den vil dukke op igen, når jeg er i det ukendte,
men nu kender jeg den bedre og ved hvad den er – kan observere den
og vurdere om den fortæller mig noget eller kommer bare af vane.

Det interessante er at efter jeg tog beslutningen –
som virkelig provokerede meget angst - 
har jeg mødt så meget hjælp og støtte i form af tilkendegivelser
og hændelser og møde med mennesker, som peger med al tydelighed på
at det er den helt rigtige beslutning jeg har taget.

Undervejs i beslutningsprocessen, så jeg – i en meditation –
en mand sidde ved en flod i Indien og da jeg kom gående over en bro, rejste han sig om kom mig i møde, som om han kendte mig godt og havde ventet.
Han “stødte” sin pande mod min – som en slags hilsen. Og jeg spurgte hvem er du? han svarede “Det ved du, når du er parat”

Jeg skal starte i Rishikesh – som ligger ved Ganges, så det bliver
sjovt at se om jeg møder en velkendt mand dér – ingen tvivl om at der er noget godt i vente

Jeg glæder mig til en spændende rejse både i det ydre og indre
plan.

Jeg vil skrive ind i mellem – og har du spørgsmål eller tanker om
hvad jeg kan inspirere med, så skriv endelig til mig.

Kærlig hilsen

Tine